It's okay mommy..... it's okay

Last night was Presley site change night. Tyler and I have decided to do it a few hours after dinner, right around bed time, that way food has had time to digest and she'll be resting.. no need to try to guess if the site change worked because we're trying to estimate was food and activity may be doing to her BG.... to us.. it just makes sense. It also gives Presley at least one bath every three days where she doesn't have anything attached to her.

After bath the girls went to their room to pick out PJ's.... once they came in the living room Presley yells to Grace "SMACK MY BUTT!!!" so they started running after one another trying to smack each others bare bums. Watching Presley run, with out any attachments made me feel so happy. Looking at her just running, and playing, not having to worry about the pump, where it was.. if it was falling off,... or having to hold it made me happy for her. She looked so.... free. It was care free play. She had the biggest smile on her face running around the chairs, Tyler looked at me and smiled and said "a few minutes of freedom eh?" It made me want to cry.

Once they got the bum smacking out of their system it was time to calm down and get PJ's on. Once Jammies were on, Tyler and I took Presley to our room to lay her on the bed for her site change... she looked at me and said "you hold my hand the whole time mommy??" of course I was going too. While daddy got ready, Presley got nervous, making a face that I can't quite describe, but a face of worry.... once daddy put the sit next to her skin we started to sing the ABC's to help distract. Once the site was attached she flinched but kept on singing. After the pump was fully hooked up I looked at her laying on the bed and gave her a big hug and kiss.... I said "I'm sorry honey" she grabbed my neck.. gave me a BIG squeeze and started to pat MY shoulder and say "it's okay mommy..... it's okay" The fact that this tiny 3 year old brown eyed girl was comforting ME... did bring a tear to my eye. Then she said "You wanna do a pump too???? DAADDDYY GET MOMMY A PUMP!!!!" which kind of made me giggle when she started yelling for her dad to get me my infusion set, but it also broke my heart. the thought of Tyler attaching one to ME.. totally FREAKED me out. It truly scares me.... it makes my heart beat and I think.... your such a WIMP! Your BABY does this... and your to scared?? It's amazing how much strength a child can have inside their tiny frames. I am so in love with this child, and amazed by her strength every day.