Writers Block

It would seem that I've had writers block. I have been so busy, without a moment to sit and write. To put my thoughts down, worries, heart aches, joys and triumphs. BUT the grocery's have been put away, the kitchen is clean, the final load of laundry is in the dryer for the day, and I thought.. blogger time!

DENTIST!

Presley's trying to comfort Grace

So much has been going on, both the girls have recently visited the dentist. I hate the girls dentist appointments more than my own, mainly because their dentist appointment is pretty much MY check up, to see how I'VE been doing with brushing, flossing, and all that dental hygiene stuff. Grace was a gem, sat there watched her movie and didn't make a fuss. PRESLEY on the other hand wasn't so gemful. She cried the WHOLE time. Really what I think set her over the edge was the xrays. Remember how painful those are? with the hard plastic they make you hold in between your teeth while it rips a hole in your tongue? geesh.. poor kid. So Presley's appointment was traumatic and Grace's was not. BUT they both got new tooth brushes, pink plac tablets, floss, AND a toy for having NO cavities. Point for mom!

watching the movie

Presley's cute little feet

DIABETES

Diabetes has me busy as ever. Ups and downs depending on numbers. Some may wonder what can make Diabetes even more complicated? the answer to that is ILLNESS! yes it's true, the common cold, or flu really messes up blood sugar numbers and all around wellness. Presley has been fighting a cold since Tuesday. And since Tuesday we have been fighting Ketons. if you don't know what that is.. look here. Ketons complicate things, I don't even FULLY understand them but I know they are EXTREMELY serious. I know Presley's DR takes things very seriously when they are present. So, since Tuesday I've been up which seems like all night, tending to blood sugar and ketons. Whipping her nose, rubbing her back during a coughing fit,holding her when she cries, injecting insulin every hour and keeping her hydrated with Gatorade while fighting ketons. Thursday night she started to whimper and cry about her ear. I thought.. good god! this will be her THIRD ear infection since December 5th. So Friday we ended up heading to the Dr and her third ear infection was confirmed. Poor kid. She can't catch a brake. I'm happy to announce that she is on the mend. I think sometimes people don't understand how much work Diabetes is, how much time and effort it takes. So i took a picture of Presley's Diabetes binder, the binder that holds all of her numbers inside. Evey time I check her blood Sugar, or give her a shot, I write it down. Ever piece of food she eats I write it down. I try to keep meticulous notes of her everyday to try to help me understand, to look and watch for patterns. It's an exhausting disease, and I must say.... I haven't felt that over whelmed by it lately, I haven't felt beaten by Diabetes in quite a while, but once she got sick and the ketons started up, it made me feel helpless, useless, tired and completely drained and sad. It's a crazy up and down emotion this diabetes business. I just try to remember that Presley is watching me for guidance. She's watching me to see my reaction to diabetes, to see how I care for her diabetes. It is extremely important for me to do my best knowing that she will probably care for herself how I care for her now. So when I do sub standard care because I'm tired or just tired of "it" I feel so guilty and ashamed. Because I am tired of it. I am tired of getting up in the middle of the night, tired of staying up late, tired of writing down everything she eats, and every number the meter reads. Well, i'm rambling and feeling sorry for myself. This too shall past.


BG numbers and insulin doses for an entire month

The food she eats is written week by week under the appropriate day. there are four weeks behind one of the papers seen above.